i am having a moment of stupidity and feel like i should NOT be doing this. somehow it is wrong. i should be doing something else, like playing, or cleaning. i know that isn't me talking though.

i drove by my old high school today. it was weird. it used to be big. its nothing. its in the middle of fields and random houses. that says a lot about what kind of po-dunk backwoods place i grew up in. you have to get in the car and drive for an hour if you want to hit a city of any kind. its weird cause i never go that way. i went to moms from the shop so thats how i went... just seeing it made me remember things just from the outside. like where i'd parked my car and the place outside where ryan kissed me goodnight one night after a dance and his family was in a car right there and i didn't know until after when they were carrying on. :O going to football games on friday night. the field where i barely made it through one whole field hockey season because i am the most unathletically inclined person on the planet. i hated gym class. that was all a long time ago. i think i was normal then at least.